Gone in a flash

3 months. 3 months of self reflection and what-nots. After those 3 months, I would love to think that I am back, better than ever. But am I?

Walking in there today, I tried to be a little bit more positive, a little bit more chirpy, a little bit more of me but I don't think it worked that much. Because the emo side of me is the stronger one now, and banishing it with a ray of sunshine is not as easy as it sounds.

Where is the happy-go-lucky person that dominated my personality not too long ago? The person that was popular and everyone wanted to be friends with? Where is the key to unlock that jail cell to release back into the world?

How can 2 years be so life-changing? How can 2 years make me retreat so far into myself that all that's left is just a shell with no emotions whatsoever.

I guess 3 months is not as long as it seems. 3 months of self-reflecting has left me with even more questions about myself. And I know that once I find answers to my questions, I will be me again. But the dark side has taken over for now, thus I am still looking for that little spot of ray that will guide me through this mess.

3 months gone in a flash. Instead of 2 steps forward, I have taken 3 back.

till next time,
still troubled